Hello and Happy Monday,
Happy New Year! We are here! 2020! A new decade!!
I want to thank all of you who came out to my New Years Day Workshop. Supporting me in a new space means so very much to me. If you have a question about your angel card, please ask, I have a book that gives more of an explanation of the cards meaning and I am happy to share that with you.
We are in a new month and on the eighth and last limb of the eight limbs of yoga. This is Samadhi, meaning unity, or bliss or enlightenment. As tough as these were getting, this one is the toughest. If I think I am experiencing bliss am I then out of the bliss state? Probably so. I know I have had glimpses of samadhi in my life and as soon as I realize where I am, it's gone. I will tell you this, I know when I'm not in a bliss state.
Over the past couple of months, I've been hearing chatter about why I left Radiance. I've been asked if I left on good terms, if I got fired, and the worst was, I heard that someone who I thought was a friend was telling people I stole from Radiance. Frankly, all this scuttlebutt caused me to feel the opposite of samadhi, in fact, I felt angry and annoyed that I was hearing these (all) untrue rumors.
On this journey, I'd like to think I've already learned lots of lessons, one being I don't have to explain myself or my story to anyone. But in reality, I'm not so sure I'm there yet. Turns out, I disguised explaining myself as needing to stand up for myself. I told myself that not every situation calls for me to allow time for things to pass. At first, I did *try* to choose to ignore this. I reminded myself that rumors are just that, and in time this will pass. But I remained unsettled and uneasy and I couldn't let it go. I reached out to this person and spoke with her. Sadly, this didn't bring me the peace I was looking for. I still felt unsettled, and miles away from a blissful state.
I had to go back to the limbs. To process this, to move on from this. I set out with an intention, I moved my body, I meditated, I journaled, I concentrated on why I really did leave, and it's all a process. I'm not one of those that can easily forgive or move on. I am hurt and even though I know it's my choice to hold onto this, it sure doesn't feel like I can just choose to move on. Funny how that works.
So bliss... blissful moments for me, are remembering how far I've come. The communities I have cultivated and lead through yoga. The courage it took me to realize, like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, that I had the power within me all along to do this on my own. Yoga is my calling, my steady, what I am passionate about and what gets me moving through every single day.
I would love to hear from you? What are some of your unblissful moments? What has brought you away from feeling that connection within yourself?
With So Much Love,