Hello and Happy Monday,
Have you ever given up? I have, many times. I think this is the yoga. I think this is part of our work. I think that knowing when to say "I give up" can be a profound moment. For a long time I was unwilling to admit that I gave up on things. I didn't want to admit because I worried that someone would call me out. Call me out that I hadn't tried hard enough, or that I gave up too soon. Also, I am my worst critic, so I'd be judging myself for the very same reasons. But in most of the times I gave up I am glad I did, all those times gave me lessons, just like the times I pressed on and proved I wasn't' limited.
There are lots of reasons I have given up. When thinking about reasons, they generally boil down to situations not working in the way I would have liked them to work. Ultimately, in all these situations, giving up is not easy, even when it feels right. As an old friend used to say, "Nobody likes a quitter."
I've given up on a bunch of things this year. Most recently, I stepped away from the Yoga Flow Teaching Training Program I led for four years at Radiance Yoga in Old Town Alexandria. Walking away from the program I helped create was difficult because teaching students become teachers is one of the aspects of yoga I absolutely love. But the need to move on outweighed the need to stay. I think this where we all get to and then a change happens. When one need outweighs another. For some of us, the heavy feelings can cause haste and bitterness and burn bridges. Luckily, this was not the case here, but I definitely have those experiences too.
This month our focus is on Ishvara Pranidhana, surrender to the divine. What I hope to learn in this lifetime is to surrender with grace. Maybe there is no difference between surrendering with grace and giving up, but I'd like to think so. Learning to listen to my gut more, learning to examine why I do the things I do, to really pay attention and be aware.
Have you ever walked away from something you loved? Have you ever given up? As of today, I do not have any regrets on anything I have given up on - what about you?
With Love & Grace,
P.S. I still will be leading Yoga Teacher Trainings, at The Greenhouse and being a guest teacher throughout Old Town Alexandria. Details will be out soon for that!